Stress Drillon..

If I could wish for a stress, I will wish to have the same stress with my hubby for the past few weeks.  It's been a very long journey for him to decide on one thing, to accept or not to.  I felt his worries and I know it was a very difficult decision for him to make.  I thank God for guiding him to make his final decision.  God is so amazing, He really works in our lives.  I cannot explain how exactly He works but I feel His presence in our lives.  You are such a faithful Father, dear God!

First of all, I would like to thank You for giving me my wonderful hubby, I appreciate him more, I am loving him more today than yesterday.  We are truly blessed!  I cannot ask for more.  Everything seems perfect.  As much as I don't want to think about the future, I can't help but think of the possibilities.  As much as I don't want to think about negative thoughts, the more negative thoughts run through my head.  Oooopppssss! it's an old ME, now, I know how to enjoy what I have now, don't think too much of the future but of course, I should bear in mind that whatever I'm doing now or whatever I have right now, in one way or another, it has impact to my future.  So, a note to myself, "be very careful in everything I do" and have more faith that everything is very much ok. :)

God is so good all the time! :)

Nissan ka na? :)

There are times that I could still remember you, I miss you I guess. 

We've been through a lot, you were there when I was in one of the most difficult times of my life, you taught me to be stronger.  You brought me to the right places where I found the answers to all my questions and worries at that time.  You brought me to church and my parents' house where I find peace and comfort all the time.  I thank you for staying with me for more than a year.  You taught me how to be independent and enjoy my "me-time" from time to time.  I thank you for not giving me a headache, I never experience any failure from your side during the time that we're still together.  You're like a best friend to me.  I know you can't say anything but you witnessed the crying moment of my life...hahaha if you could only speak, I'm sure you'll say "OA mo 'te!" hehehe

Goodbye! but I know you'll be in good hands and they will take good care of you.  Missing you Nissan!

Essay-Essay-an :)

"When I read JFEN’s announcement about the essay contest in time for Mother’s day, I got too excited!  Excited for the reason that I can share my experience being a mother and share my mother’s way of raising us.  Before, my mom was so protective of me, not allowed to spend overnight at a friend’s house, never allowed to have a boyfriend while studying and a lot more.  Though I don’t have a daughter yet! but I know how to protect my kids. 

I believe that how you were raised by your parents will be your guide to your future.  Now that I am a mother, I will never forget how my mom was able to raise us.  She did everything together with my father in order for us to finish our studies.  My mother believes that education is the only treasure they could give us and I will make sure that my kids will value how important education in one’s life.

It is true that you will appreciate your mother more when you become a mother.  Being a mother is a 24/7 job which you never get tired.  This is the job that you will surely love. "

Then, suddenly I stopped writing and my mind stopped thinking. 

I just realized that when you're doing something out of nothing, your heart isn't there, you just stop.  While if you're doing something out of love, you just keep on going and never get tired.  When you become a mother, it seems that there is a big transformation that happens, it just happens.  (walang kaabog abog, tada! you become a Supermom! you can do everything at the same time) 

When I get back home, I will again be the mother of my 2 littlle wonderful kids, my priceless possession :)  I thank God for giving me the opportunity to be a mother.  I cannot promise Him that I will be a great nanay all the time but I will try my best to be the best nanay I can be for my 2 boys :)  I appreciate more my nanay, now that I am a mother, too.  I thank her for showing me how to become a great nanay, I may not reach the level of love she continuously gives us unconditionally but at least I know how to do it, it just depends on me if I'll follow it or not. (wag matigas ulo, always obey nanay's advices about raising a family)  My nanay never stops being my nanay, she's always there to support me in everything I do.  I always hope and pray to God to give my nanay a longer life so we could spend more quality time with her.  Nanay, you never know how much I love you.  If others claim that their mom is the best mom in the whole wide world, then, you're the BEST among them all! Love you nanay.  Happy Mother's day! :)

Kuya Kiel at 1 year old :)

Ethan at 11-month old (ang kulit! pigil na pigil tawa nya..hehhee)

Kuya Kiel at 3 years old :)

Baby Ethan at 3-day old :)

Nanay Irene and Nanay Tuding :) Love you nanay!

 

Family and Work!

So much things running in my mind that I could not organize so I could write it here. 

These are the feelings I have for now:

1.  Missing my boys, tatay, kuya kiel and ethan;
2.  Worrying about work, I really hope and pray that each of us in the team have more strength and energy to face the challenges in our work here.
3.  Wanting to go home now as in NOW na!
4.  Thinking of the projects that I still need to finish.  "Irene, get it all done na! NOW na".
5.  Excited to see the fruits of our success! Thank You Lord for all the blessings, we may think we don't deserve it but since it's from You, we claim it that we deserve it! Love you! :)
6.  Wanting to go home now as in NOW na! (ulit? ulit? hehehe)

I just notice that from the list above, I only have 2 things in mind, my family and work!

My prayer...

Lord, please provide our whole team the full strength to face the challenges and difficulties in our work.  We claim that we will all be doing just fine through Your guidance.  Please give us wisdom to say the right words during the meetings that we're going have with external auditors, with process owners and co-workers.  We lift it up to You Oh, Lord! We claim it, it will be a big success!

Please guide our families that we left in the Philippines for a while.  In everything we do, we offer it to You! In Jesus' name.  Amen.

IA team, good luck! we can do it! gogogogo! :)