Family Time over Other things

It's been a long while since I had my last blog entry.  It was about my #sepanx (separation anxiety) moment with my former employer.  I thought I could have more time to write since I will no longer have a 9-hour regular office work everyday.  But I was wrong, I was fooled by my thoughts of having more "me" time, more time to write about life, motherhood, challenges etc. etc.

Then, I became an SAHM (stay at home mom) from Feb to Apr 2016, I never had a time to check my blogsite (naks! pumi-feeling blogger talaga haha, hayaan na, pagbigyan!) and sit down to organize my thoughts then let it document here.  This never happened.

Fast forward, I started a new job last May 2016 then I quit effective July 29.  This was too fast, yeah I know.  So many realizations, I thought I can let my day pass without kissing my sons "good night", I thought I can let them do their homework without my supervision, I thought I can let them review on their own during quizzes, exams.  This time, I was right, my kids were able to do their homework, review their lessons on their own but I felt guilty about it, I never had a quality time with them after office hours (super duper extended working hours).  Aside from my nanay duties, my duties as a wife had suffered already. So I realized there's something wrong, I need to do something about it.  So, finally, I realized my priority is my family.  I will never trade my family time for a well-compensated job but offers me to have little time to spend with the people I love the most.  I decided to quit my job at that time.

Looking forward to work again with my former employer.  Yeah you read it right, "with my former employer".

#dramaqueenever

I thought I was ok, I thought I had moved on but then again, now that I look back, all I can say is "Whew! How I wish I could make it last but it was already final and I cannot bring back the past." I thought I succeeded all the stages of moving on (these are my own stages, others may have different stages on how to move on, I guess it varies based on personality).

1.  Denial:  You cannot imagine yourself losing the relationship that you put so much time, effort and love to make it last.  Sadly, it didn't work the way you wanted it to be.

2.  Anger:  Hated the situation.  Why did it happen?  You thought the relationship is smooth, suddenly, the situation changed.

3.  Grieving: Since you parted ways, you can't help but grieve. Sad :(

4.  Acceptance:  Accepted the situation and believed that you can't bring back the past.  Past is past and you totally have accepted it.

I thought I was done with these stages where I have reached the Acceptance stage already.

Now, as my end date with Cypress (Yes, this is about my relationship with Cypress as employer-employee relationship) is coming so soon, I can't help but feel sad about it.  I grew up with this Company personally and professionally.  I gained friends and encountered difficult people as well.  These were the people who have helped me and made me stronger to face any kind of challenges.  I thank them for being part of my journey.  (huhuhu!!!)

Thank You Cypress for the time we've spent together.  You've been so generous and I'm grateful that I was able to enjoy it and share it with the people I love.

God bless our journey! :)