Is it me or ako lang talaga? (gulo ba?)

Hey mommies, I missed blogging.  Lately, I always feel tired, sleepy but I need to be energetic as always (I have two (2) kids who are equally makulit and malikot, san ka pa? kelangan sabayan ang pagka hyper nila, otherwise, mapag iiwanan ako!).  I easily get tired and sometimes or most of the time rather, I have a little patience, I need to control it.  As much as possible, I don't want to be a monster mom again! So help me God!

Now, I really salute all mommies out there, I love my nanay even more when I became a nanay.  Ang hirap pala talaga maging nanay and wife at the same time.  All mommies must always be full of energy (bawal magkasakit!), if the father is the head of the family, I must say mother is the body of the family (the hands, the feet etc. etc.).  For working moms, it's hard to manage our time with our family, work, friends, parents and relatives.  Aside from managing your time on work, you need to manage everybody's businesses. (your wife duties do not stop when you become a mother; it's a never ending duty/obligation!;  you need to have a healthy body so you can do things easily like taking care of your babies, putting them to bed, washing their feeding bottles, assisting them during their study time and help them do their homework, playing with them etc. etc.)

Now that I am not getting any younger, I'm having a hard time dealing with my stress/esessssssss. (dati kasi ang bilis lang I-deal ng stress, lately, parang ang hirap, ang hirap hirap! ramdam nyo? hehe)  I tend not to follow the to do's that I have set.  I think I really deserve a bonggang bonggang me time, yung sobrang walang iniisip, yung ako lang muna talaga, though having "me" time gives me a guilt feeling.  Pero siguro naman I really deserve a very relaxing me time?

Now, is it me or ako lang talaga ang nakakafeel ng ganito? yung tipong, feeling walang time-out ang mommy and wife duties (syempre may iba pang duties....) and bawal magkasakit ang mga mommies kasi walang mag aasikaso sa family, yung feeling na lahat sila ikaw ang kailangan, pano naman yung pangangailangan ko? hehehe (ang drama pero super napapagod lang ako and really need time to relax!)  I can't focus even sa work!

Tomorrow is another day! :)