Motherhood or Wifehood?

Motherhood is one of the best feelings I've ever experienced and still enjoying it.  But most of the time, my patience always put to the test, given that I have 2 boys, still motherhood is a great feeling and very fulfilling.  For me, the essence of being a woman is being a mother but wait....I think I was wrong.

Before I became a mother, I was a wife first.  Being a wife to my husband is one of the greatest feelings I've ever had.  Not all the time, we're okay.  We fight, we argue, we fight, we argue, then we fight again and we argue again...hahaha.  The best part of it is at the end of the day, we know how to say sorry, accept our faults, forgive one another.  This is so natural for us to do as we do it out of love.  We cannot let each other feel bad all the time.  I am so blessed to have my husband in my life, he knows how to calm me down and comfort me.

Last night was the first time we didn't celebrate Valentine's day in our 10 years of being together.  It was a surprise date, he called me in the afternoon to say that we're going to have our dinner together.  To prepare for that, I left the office early enough to pick up my Kuya Kiel from school to finish our review session for his quiz the following day.  I didn't foresee that our review will take time longer than I expected.  Until such time, that the reservation for our dinner date was forfeited.  Yes, my hubby reserved and paid for it already.  So sad.  I was torn between motherhood and wifehood.  I was told before that my husband should always be my priority, next is my kids.  Last night, I felt guilty about it.  I just ruined my husband's plans to celebrate our Valentine's day.  We're okay now and he said sorry too because of his reaction last night for what happened.  I fully understand what he felt last night, I felt guilty about it.  I can't leave my son at home saying that he is not yet ready for the quiz, so I chose to stay and taught him about the lesson. 

I realized I should have prioritized my husband.  I was amazed with what my husband did early this morning, he talked to me and  said sorry.  He fully understand my situation last night where I was torn between him and my son.  He realized that what I did was okay.  Now, I was too emotional how this guy can easily forgive me for what I did.  God is really good to fill my heart with so much love from the people I love especially from my husband.

Thank you tatay for your never ending patience, love and care.  Thank you for everything.  I love you so much! This is for you, this is how we started.  Love you tatay.